The Metamorphosis of Beto

Metamorphosis

Beto, a young fragile boy whose only goal at his age was to experience life in the most invigorating way possible, within his limits of course. He decided at a very early phase of his life that those who were brothers and sisters were only slowing him down. The only logical reason to resolve this internal to leave that community (from which he was raised into) to explore, live, to “take it all in”. Without hesitation the community began to take notice in this sudden change of heart and slowly, as the months went by, they began to accept/respect his decision. They began to recognized that changes are common in people so feeble as him, so (out of respect) they let go all of him. 

After a a year or so (of wandering through his wanderlust) he found another community whose goals in life where similar to his. From his position, they all wanted to reach for the stars in anyway possible. Day-by-day Beto felt as if he was standing among peers, people who would carry the same cross of his, if he were to be carrying one at some moment in their friendship. 

As the years went by, he felt as if those new peers were only platonic. The feeling of emptiness began to fill him up until the point in which those around him were there, but at the same time they weren’t there. He continually told himself that “it was a weird feeling,” something he would never expect to feel at his young age, but life gives spins at such a fast rate that well, he fell into a depression - it was never confirmed, but the symptoms were there, “feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness; feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism; insomnia; ‘empty' feelings;” and others. 

Life felt not very pleasurable as he had envisioned before, that wanderlust feeling had faded and their was no trace of it in his being. Several months passed and each symptom became heighten until a one summer day when he came across a lost flame. That moment when he first heard that voice (which was faded in his mind), he began coming back to reality. She brought upon light to that dark corner which was consuming him and turning him to a being of indifference. After the first initial contact, their relationship grew strong to the point in which most of the things which caused him worry began to dissipate. Up until this point, it’s hard to give those emotions felt a specific word to express that felt. He has tried many times to explain, even to himself on paper, what that persona means, only coming to the conclusion that the only word capable of carrying any emotion is gratitude because every time he thinks of that dame he knows that if she wasn’t there at that specific moment in his life, he wouldn’t have passed through the right metamorphosis.